ISTJ

This past weekend reminded me that I am not the same person that I was five or six years ago. In high school, it was all about being social, discovering my feelings, and exploring my identity. This weekend, I shed tears because I just wanted to be alone. I kept thinking, "What is wrong with me?" Nothing is wrong, I've just changed.

The older I get, even though I'm only 23, I realize how introverted I am. Almost two years ago I took my Myers Briggs test and today I took it again. In two years I have changed in more than one way.

ISTJ: Introverted Sensing with Extraverted Thinking

This last holiday weekend was spent with many people. It was full of social interactions with friends, family, and church. These things are not bad but at the end of the day, I was holding back tears of anxiety. I ended up exploding on Ben, my trooper of a boyfriend, because I just wanted to be alone. I didn't want anyone to talk to me, touch me, or be anywhere near me.

After about 20 minutes, Ben's sweet voice said, "Can I talk to you now?" I wasn't mad at him, he didn't do anything to me, I was just done with people and I needed a little breather. That 20 minutes worked as a reset button. No longer would I get my energy from being around people but I would get my energy from being alone.

Now to explain the Extraverted Thinking... Oh Boy. Extraverted Thinking has a desire to control their environments, and can feel lost when they are not able to shape their own external world. A simpler definition is anal about their environment. I work best alone. However, if you ask my opinion on something, I will be brutally honest with you. I will tell you how I believe it should be and will stand firm on the ground I speak from.

This isn't always bad, but if I am talking to a very sensitive person, I can come across and a jerk. I've been told multiple times that I come across as a tough cookie to crack. This is exactly how I should start describing myself as.

I've also learning to let someone else do the talking and learn from them before I open my mouth. This is something that I hope to continue to learn from because it isn't always an easy task to do, especially when it comes to loved one.

So if you find yourself surrounding yourself with a ton of energy people, you can find me at home, in bed, enjoying a movie. If I am at work, don't be offended when I shut my door or leave the office to work from home.

I would encourage anyone who confused with their feeling or just interested in learning more about themselves to take this super short test. It might open your eyes...

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