Sometimes when I have writers block, it takes something major in my life to get me thinking. These last few weeks, I have felt like part of me was missing. I wasn't all here and it was bothering me. In the beginning of November I was able to attend church for the first time in a long time, and God showed me some major things. When I was home over Thanksgiving, I was also able to go to church and once again, God showed me something major that needed changing.
Growing up, I felt the need to impress those around me. Whether it was being extremely mature for my age, or graduating college, I felt the need to make sure people were impressed. The last few months, I have let things slide that I would have never let slide 1 year ago. Something in me changed. I lost sight of the prize. When people weren't around that I needed to impress, I changed who I was, and that is so wrong.
As I was listening to music on my phone, I normally skim through songs until I find an upbeat song. For some reason I started listening to Arms Open Wide by Hillsong United. I found myself in my car belting out the chorus. "My whole life is Yours. I give it all, surrendered to Your Name and forever I will pray, have your way." Instead of impressing the people around me, I need to impress God. Not by showing off, but in how I live my life. In my decision making, I need to make sure that the decision is made to please God, not others. When I am trying to impress others, I am hurting myself and not thinking about what God wants for me.
It is time to stop trying to impressing others and stand up for God. Please pray that I am given the strength to stand up to people, make the right decisions, and through it all, find peace. My prayer for the next few weeks is going to be a verse from Arm Open Wide and it goes like this, "I am Yours and You are mine." Through it all, He will be there.
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