Sometimes when I have writers block, it takes something major in my life to get me thinking. These last few weeks, I have felt like part of me was missing. I wasn't all here and it was bothering me. In the beginning of November I was able to attend church for the first time in a long time, and God showed me some major things. When I was home over Thanksgiving, I was also able to go to church and once again, God showed me something major that needed changing.
Growing up, I felt the need to impress those around me. Whether it was being extremely mature for my age, or graduating college, I felt the need to make sure people were impressed. The last few months, I have let things slide that I would have never let slide 1 year ago. Something in me changed. I lost sight of the prize. When people weren't around that I needed to impress, I changed who I was, and that is so wrong.
As I was listening to music on my phone, I normally skim through songs until I find an upbeat song. For some reason I started listening to Arms Open Wide by Hillsong United. I found myself in my car belting out the chorus. "My whole life is Yours. I give it all, surrendered to Your Name and forever I will pray, have your way." Instead of impressing the people around me, I need to impress God. Not by showing off, but in how I live my life. In my decision making, I need to make sure that the decision is made to please God, not others. When I am trying to impress others, I am hurting myself and not thinking about what God wants for me.
It is time to stop trying to impressing others and stand up for God. Please pray that I am given the strength to stand up to people, make the right decisions, and through it all, find peace. My prayer for the next few weeks is going to be a verse from Arm Open Wide and it goes like this, "I am Yours and You are mine." Through it all, He will be there.
Saturday, December 6, 2014
Friday, December 5, 2014
Not Just Thanksgiving
Tis the season to realize how thankful you are for the people, places, and things around you. So who, what, and where are you thankful for this season?
The list of people who I am thankful for could go on and on. Especially these last few years, I can't say enough thank you's and I am sure that I have forgotten plenty. Let me just begin by thanking my Parents. They have flown across the United States for me, literally. No matter what I do, they support me 100%. I am also thankful for my East Coast Parents, the Weavers. They have opened their home for me and have been there whenever I need anything. I have learned so much from them, and I can't thank them enough. The Goldsmith family has been a huge blessing these last few months. After letting me invade their space, they feed me and make me feel like family. I also can't say thank you enough to my Sandy Cove Family. Meghan, Cody, Michael, Deanna, Dan, Nick, and so many more, I can't say thank you enough! And of course, I am thankful for Ben who has put up with me for the last few months. No matter how stressed or frustrating I am, he continues to show me and remind me that I can do anything I put my mind to.
I am beyond thankful for some of the littlest things as well. The first one being my bed. I love my bed and treasure every night I get to sleep in it. I am also thankful for my bathroom. I have running, hot water. However, food is something I am VERY thankful for this season. Whether it is a new kind of stuffing or a fresh container of raspberry jelly, I am thankful that when I go to bed, I don't fall asleep on an empty stomach.
Traveling is one of my favorite things in the whole world. It may just be the drive to school or into work, but I love it. Seeing God's creation piece by piece, warms my heart. In the last few months, I have traveled over 4,000 miles and will travel another 1,300 before Christmas. I'm thankful for airports and their ability to get me across the country to see my Family. However I am also thankful for being able to call Maryland home for these last few months and summers.
During this holiday season, think about the people, things, and places that you are thankful for. Share what you are thankful for with others around you and listen to what they have to say. It may be as simple as a new stove or it may be as special as a 2 year old saying that the person they are most thankful for is you.
The list of people who I am thankful for could go on and on. Especially these last few years, I can't say enough thank you's and I am sure that I have forgotten plenty. Let me just begin by thanking my Parents. They have flown across the United States for me, literally. No matter what I do, they support me 100%. I am also thankful for my East Coast Parents, the Weavers. They have opened their home for me and have been there whenever I need anything. I have learned so much from them, and I can't thank them enough. The Goldsmith family has been a huge blessing these last few months. After letting me invade their space, they feed me and make me feel like family. I also can't say thank you enough to my Sandy Cove Family. Meghan, Cody, Michael, Deanna, Dan, Nick, and so many more, I can't say thank you enough! And of course, I am thankful for Ben who has put up with me for the last few months. No matter how stressed or frustrating I am, he continues to show me and remind me that I can do anything I put my mind to.
I am beyond thankful for some of the littlest things as well. The first one being my bed. I love my bed and treasure every night I get to sleep in it. I am also thankful for my bathroom. I have running, hot water. However, food is something I am VERY thankful for this season. Whether it is a new kind of stuffing or a fresh container of raspberry jelly, I am thankful that when I go to bed, I don't fall asleep on an empty stomach.
Traveling is one of my favorite things in the whole world. It may just be the drive to school or into work, but I love it. Seeing God's creation piece by piece, warms my heart. In the last few months, I have traveled over 4,000 miles and will travel another 1,300 before Christmas. I'm thankful for airports and their ability to get me across the country to see my Family. However I am also thankful for being able to call Maryland home for these last few months and summers.
During this holiday season, think about the people, things, and places that you are thankful for. Share what you are thankful for with others around you and listen to what they have to say. It may be as simple as a new stove or it may be as special as a 2 year old saying that the person they are most thankful for is you.
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